Why do you question your creations?

Especially when there is no benchmark

It feels exhilarating, out of this world, strengthening when we create something. The conscious act of channeling your seemingly unrelated thoughts through the language of your movements; hands, lips, expressions, and emotions, is, if not in exaggeration, quite magical. That feeling stays with you, but unfortunately, momentarily. The ship of your creativity wants to reach ashore to unload the contents and move further. Your creativity needs a port. Does it?

The same brain that was responsible for the magical creations magically switches itself off to embody a disappointed after-show actor walking on the street to catch the 9:30 train back to frozen food and whiskey. You start questioning your creations and their acceptance by the “people”.

My question to you is this: why do you question your magic?

People. There are so many of us, what makes one different from the other 7.5 billion? Is it the way we portray ourselves or is it the way we identify ourselves? Maybe it is the way we see ourselves in others' eyes. But what I am? Who I am? Why do I create? What do I want to achieve by creating what I create?

1. What I am?

I am everyone else. The simple answer to it is Human Being. I am a human being with two eyes, a nose, limbs, emotions, a brain with critical thinking skills, that knows the difference between right or wrong, or am I? Question yourself what are you? The answer may surprise you.

What if I say, I am everything.

“What do you mean by that?”

I am a human being, sure, but I am a dog, monkey, my relatives, a crane operator, a bird waiting for the first ray of light, an ocean with high and low tides, time, space, a particle (atom), or a careful mess of particles (atoms).

Hold on, what? Yes! You’re the product of nature’s billions of years of creativity. Human beings, when seen from the evolutionary point of view, are on the top. To me, it says, “I have the experiences of all the organisms that did not make it to where I am, to create me”. Therefore, I am essentially everything. That is what I am. I am you, you are me. “Then what is the difference between you and me? Aren’t we distinct from each other?” No difference whatsoever when you ask “What are you”. The difference lies is “Who are you?”

2. Who am I?

I am unique and colorful. This is where the difference can be defined to some extent. I know that I am carefully arranged billions of particles. The difference between you and me is the unique arrangement of particles that we all organisms have been blessed with. This is who you are: nature’s eclectic arrangement of the particles that make up everything you see and feel. Therefore, I am essentially everything with a special arrangement that makes me look different, makes me see different, makes me think differently and makes me feel different. You are essentially everything and a different arrangement of the particles that make up everything. When you question your creations, you can’t compare them with others’ because there is no benchmark for the comparison. Everything is differently arranged as nature wanted it to be like that.

Who I am then? To phir Main kaun hoon?

You are what you have been through, what you have endured and what circumstances and changes in life have been adopted by you. You say “my heart says”, that’s the question to: Who am I?

Everybody is a different arrangement of particles, therefore everybody has a different role to play. What is your role to play on this earth? That is who you are.

3. Why do I create?

The puzzling question

It’s very simple: I can see the changes in an ideal world my creations can make. I feel like that I can reach from “What could be?” to “It is here”. The journey between these two sentences is why I create. Why do you create? Close your eyes and think for a solid five minutes or 5 hours. Truly, from the core of your heart, think about the reasons for your creative being. There is always a purpose before you do anything and you’re creating because there is a purpose for that. You’re putting your time into what you’re creating. How your creations affect you in the future, and are you happy with them? It’s about your happiness and not about how others feel about your creations. Ask yourself very personal questions about your creations.

What do I want to achieve by creating what I create?

In love with the earthThe answer to this question can take a minute to write if you know or maybe some years before you reach a good answer.

Even when nobody listens to, you’re trying to make your own kind of music.

You’ve got to make your own kind of music, your own special something by giving time to your creative sense. You are your own and the only competition because as we have established, there is no benchmark for your creativity when you compare it with others. Then there’s you. The person who is giving life to their creative brain and trying to put legs and hands in it to let it thrive in the world. You are your own benchmark.

So ask yourself, what do you want to achieve when you create something? Is there a need for achievement? Do you see yourself there when you started creating with that initial ambition in the coming time, or “there’s already too much in the world” thoughts start to linger.

Those are quite the distractions that hinder one’s focus.

If you feel something when you create, even for a moment, you’re channeling the millions of years of evolution on that piece of paper.

It doesn’t matter if it’s going to be liked by others. The best thing about creation is the expression. And when you express, you learn. The last thing that matters is if you’re good enough. You are enough when you express. “Good enough” is not a manifestation of your creativity, it asks for skills. You know what you want to create and you see it in your head what you want to achieve. Having good skills is going to give a good channel for your creativity to come in the outer physical world. And the best part is, skills are learned. So if you feel it, start skilling yourself to give birth to the countless magical imaginations you’ve had. A little work is required, but that’s going to pay you back in life.

I assume we have tried to know about ourselves a lot during this reading. Try not to compare yourself, I know it’s hard to do it, but it’s also not doing any good to you. Let it come out in your own way. Don’t hide them in the box. Your creations deserve this world. - Are you going to come out and play with me? A game of letting your creativity out? You are me and I am you. We are just particles in the end. Take care.